sweet little lies

I really enjoy blogging, it is a sort of an upbeat journaling exercise for me. (The most regular form of exercise that I freely participate in.) I haven't posted regularly over the last couple of weeks but I was working on my blog. I wanted to change it's look and some of the features. I thought that I could do it myself in a couple of weeks. I am certainly capable, I just need to put my mind to it. Right? I can buy a few books on HTML and CSS and together with my limited knowledge of Photoshop.....Viola! Uhm....yeah.

I have now decided that although what I want is simple enough, it is beyond what I can do and isn't something that I particularly want to learn how to do. But isn't this another case of the lie that I tell myself? That I can do everything? I just have to put my mind to it. Then if I do anything less than perfect I feel that I am some sort of failure. (Irrational I know.) So I obligate myself to all sorts of things and end up in all these situations that one person could not possibly manage and still continue to enjoy life. I am capable of doing it all, I believe, but I just can't do it all at the same time.

I have to say when I heard about Jack Welch's (the former CEO of General Electric) statement that "there's no such thing as work-life balance" (while driving to work and after doing laundry) I agreed. His point was that there are work-life choices and that those choices have repercussions, both in our personal and professional lives. The belief that I can be 100% effective and an expert in more than one place at one time is impossible, at least until I am able to control space and time. I think that I need to change my outlook and prioritize what I can give 100% effort to and pick and choose what I spend time doing. In conclusion, I am planning to give my design to somebody who can actually (and in probably less than 1 hour) code everything properly. I still think I should design the appearance of the blog. (baby steps)